I am nervous about what now??
I think something is really wrong with me. I don't like my job and I told my boss I am leaving. The job is already listed and there have already been 6 applicants.

But now part of me doesn't want to leave and I can't work it out for the life of me. I am partially worried because the money is really good here and I know my next job won't come close. Not only will there be a pay cut but I will have to pay rent.

I also just added up my hours and it is less than I thought (granted with the travel time it adds up big time plus all of the planning and preparations I have to do before I leave).

I know I don't like my job. It is hard. The hours are crazy. Some of the classes are crap. I feel too tired most days to do much of anything. I don't feel like a good teacher. I hate the way this company is run.

Yet I am scared. I hate the unknown. I am afraid my next job will be just as bad. I am afraid I won't be able to do all that I want because of money. And there is a lot that I don't know how to do (like pay my bills) because my boss won't let me.

Sorry for rambling but this is how I feel. I am afraid of the unknown and I tend to worry about everything. I know I hate my job but......

I think I need some hot chocolate, strawberry tart and curry.